I miss him too.
I was his wife for two years and I never forgave myself for leaving him,I had known him since I was 9. I am now 51!! He was one hell of a bloke,we met by coincidence on what should have been our silver wedding,I told him i'd never forgiven myself, he told me I should, as he had. it was like he knew what was going to happen. I miscarried our child in 1980, he would have been called Paul. I sometimes sense them. I wish them well